Emotionally Exhausted

I have a dream

That one day

We're gonna work it out

"I Have A Dream"

Common featuring Will.i.am

For the first time I will admit to my own face that I have had better days.  In other words, I had a bad day; probably the worst of all the days since I was given my assignment.  I'm so overwhelmed and today I wanted to resign; FOR REALS! However, if I give up on my students, I will more than likely do what other people have done to most of them, which is walk out of their lives.  At the "tender" age of 14, many of them have had some of the worst reality checks that any human being can bear to experience.  People walking out on them; some may have never met one or both of their parents; homelessness and hunger; some may live with a relative that is not their parent; family immigration status in America; and some act up because no one has given them the opportunity to demonstrate their full potential, just to name a few of the things that some of my students are up against. Because structure is often non-existent in their lives, they resist it with all of their might.

I am determined to give them hope, peace of mind, security, and love through the structure I will build upon in my class.  But I'm not going to lie: I'm getting lazy because I would much rather sleep than think/stress about ways to make this a truly engaging and meaningful experience for us all. I'M NOT GIVING UP; I WILL PERSEVERE BECAUSE I AM A RESILIENT HUMAN BEING.

P.s. I watched "The Freedom Writers Diary" starring Hilary Swank in efforts to reignite my passion for teaching. There's a reason why God planted and embedded this seed deep within my heart. I will continue to hope and act upon all that I learn through my lessons, as well as through the feedback that I receive. It is time to get real and let my students know that because I care, I will not let them fail or do whatever they please in my class.  On the contrary, we will learn from each other and get through it together.  That is what a family is all about and a strong resonating theme embedded in the inspiration behind the diaries of The Freedom Writers.

Greetings Familia!

Greetings Everyone!

I have not had the time to update my blog as often as I can because... I HAVE A JOB TEACHING 8TH GRADE ENGLISH LANGUAGE ARTS! The position has definitely forced me to step out of my comfort zone and trust God with the blessings he will bring upon my life.  It has been a tough emotional roller coaster, but I will not give just yet... or ever. Thank you to those of you who have been supportive of my journey as an educator. This is the beginning of my teaching career and God is just getting started. I am excited, nervous, hopeful, and human about my experience thus far. I will do my best to take advantage of the opportunities that God prepares and puts in my life. I pray that all turns out as it should and that with his blessing, I move forward with my life and with my educational pursuits to fulfill my mission. My challenge to you is to let God pave and lead the way for you. He has already prepared the blessings he desires to give you, but the question remains: how bad do you want it? A part of having faith is trusting God with your life, with your every being. He will never cease to amaze you, especially in our weakest points because that is when he strengthens our characters the most. Let him come into your life and you'll see what happens. Have a blessed day everyone!